ETS has been doing these monthly installment posts of what she’s learned over the previous month. I am totally stealing this idea from her…I don’t know if I will do this monthly but I thought I would just give this a try- see if I like it, see if you like it, see if I should do this more than just this time. Be sure to let me know what you think in the comments.
So far the most important think that this year has taught me so far is how much love a baby can bring an entire family. I knew the moment I found out my brother and sister-in-law were expecting a baby that this was exciting news. I don’t think then I realized just how that excitement would turn to incredible love. That I would come home for lunch on the day he came home from the hospital just so I could hold him for the first time…and love every single second of it.
I also (re)learned babies have their own agenda and timing…and sometimes decide to take over 18 hours to be born. In addition, I (re)learned that babies can go from happy and content to screaming mad in the course of an instant when they decide that they really are hungry afterall. And diapering a baby? I learned that is just like riding a bike- it comes right back to you (complete with the ducking reflex when he sprays mid-change). It brought me back to my nanny days- which I kinda miss- almost. I then (re)learned the incredible peace there is with the world when you are sitting on the the couch with a peacefully sleeping infant on your chest, or in your lap, or in your arms.
I have learned that going to a NASCAR race live and in person, totally rocks. I have been a fan so long that I was sure that it wouldn’t be all that different. I don’t know why I was surprised since the same thing happened when my dad surprised me as a teen with tickets to see the IndyCars at Laguna Seca (before the split). I enjoyed Vegas so much so that I feel myself being pulled towards Infineon raceway in Sonoma (a mere 2 and a half hour drive one way). I can’t go…but I feel myself being pulled towards it…and am sure I will find myself there in the next year or two. I enjoyed Vegas so much that I am counting the days until the Pepsi 400.
So far this year I have learned that I need to write. It is as important to my spirit and my soul as breathing is to my body. I have been writing a lot more this year than I have in recent past years. Both in this blog and in non-blogging venues. Both fiction and non-fiction. I have also learned that even though I am a published poet….I do not like to write poetry. I find it too confining. So I branched out into fiction and creative non-fiction. Its not necessarily uncharted territory, but territory that I haven’t explored in quite awhile- so its kind of like an exciting adventure.
I have learned that even though I am still painfully shy in large groups of people I don’t know..or even medium size groups of people I don’t know, I do not have a burning desire to blend into the woodwork. There is a big part of me that likes to stand out and say THIS IS ME THIS IS WHO I AM (ok so I shamelessly stole that from Little Big Town’s Boondocks…it couldn’t fit me any better). This doesn’t mean that I am not socially awkward, I am. Very much so. But still…I like to be socially awkward my way. I have also very recently learned that it is about damn time I started learning to love myself for who I am, but that is easier said than done.
I am beginning to learn at work to stand up for myself. I have learned that there is a difference between being a “good” worker and being a pushover and that while it is a fine line, I must stand up and say NO I can’t do that, when that line is crossed, or face losing my sanity and my job satisfaction. Even it if means saying no to someone important. This has actually been a very hard lesson for me to learn (its only taken me over 10 years) because I have an intense desire to please and to be liked and saying NO isn’t usually in my vocabulary.
I have learned that I really enjoy being part of a community both online and off.
I have also learned that sometimes, someone will do something for you (like make you a bitching new banner) just because they feel like it.
I have recently learned that I tend to talk (and write) in acronyms, slang and “amyisms” that not everyone understands and I will do my best to try to stop doing that- or at the very least remember who my audience is at any given time. (By the way Bill, COT stands for “car of tomorrow” which is actually this season the “car of today”. It was the new version of the NASCAR cup cars that was introduced at specific tracks last season and this season is being used exclusively. Email me if you are really interested in the specifics).
I have learned that my beagle has a strange and fairly recent fascinating with sleeping in my laundry.
I learned that I still LOVE to take pictures and am trying to get back into it after some frustration with my foray into trying a different lense attachment on my Canon I5.
I learned that a new hairstyle really can give you a new attitude, even if it means having to get up earlier so you can flat iron all the waves out of your hair. I also learned, that I love to get compliments, whether they be on my hair, the color of my shirt, or whatever…love that…keep them coming.
I have learned that I am quite good at snapping a carseat base in and out of my car…and can do it quickly using the latches. Latches rock.